Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Getting Nervous!

8 days till we see our high risk doctor.
10 days till we reach full term.
24 days till my due date based on LMP.
31 days till my ultrasound due date!

Baby "C" will be here before we know it and I am getting really nervous for several reasons!  

First is because of her heart!  Is her heart going to be strong enough to tolerate the VBAC I we have been planning?  Is she going to have to go to the NICU because of her heart or am I going to get to have her in the room with me?  There are just so many questions about her heart that wont be able to be answered until she is born and it is really scaring the crap out of me.

Second is because of labor!  You wouldn't think this would make me nervous but it sure does!  I am wanting to try for a all natural VBAC with no pain meds!  I just don't know if I have the will power to do so!

Third is bringing her home and getting my son comfortable with having a new Tiny Human in the house!  I am worried about how he is going to adjust!  He has been the center of my world for four years and now he is going to have to share my attention!  

I know everything will work out in the end but right now I am just nervous and ready for all of this to be over!  I am ready to meet my daughter and hold her in my arms.  I am just hoping that she will not need much if any medical intervention for her VSD!  But I am also preparing myself mentally for if she does!  Again please keep our family and little girl in your prayers!


  1. You can do it Mama :) If you don't have a Doula, I'd urge you to find one. They increase your chances of successfully completing a natural birth significantly. Totally awesome! Have you talked to the doctors at the hospital to see what kinds of precautions they are planning to take when your daughter is born?

  2. We do have a doula and she is the best! My midwife seems to think and she will not need NICU care but is going to have our Pediatric Cardiologist on call for when she is born. She said that as long as the baby is doing fine then she will stay with me but it is still all up in the air as to what kind of care she will need!